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New Year, Same Me

New Year New Me

The New Year is fast approaching and you know me, I’m not one to miss a chance to post about a clichéd, yet nuanced  tradition!

But I’m going to give it to you straight, I don’t plan on becoming a “New Me” for the new year.  I am in a constant state of transition.  Every day I become a new me. Don’t you?

Every day a new thought pops into my head.  Half the time they are absolutely ridiculous like, “If the Sanderson sisters had been dead for 300 years, how did they know exactly how to use a microphone for their epic ‘I Put a Spell On You’ dance number?” or “Italian sounds so much prettier than English- an Italian man could spend an hour describing a carrot to me and I will have already accepted his proposal, married him, and had his child in in my head in that time.”  But you know, those are just the thoughts that keep me sane and giggling to myself in a corner.  (That’s the definition of sane, right?)

In addition to those Einstein level realizations, I do have the occasional meaningful thought.  One day I thought, “I want to help promote independent film and encourage aspiring film-makers to follow their dreams.”  Want to know what happened?  I created a successful film festival.  And it’s great.  (Rahway International Film Festival– check it out.)

My point is, every day will bring you new ideas and no one says that you have to wait until January 1st to make a move.  (If they do, stop talking to them.  You don’t need that kind of negativity in your life.)

I will always be “me.”  I am both the same and new.  Every day brings something new- new lessons, new ideas, new plans, new skin cells…all that jazz.  My values remain the same, my morals remain the same even as my hopes and dreams evolve.

Start today, start tomorrow, start in March, who cares.  Start when you are ready to make a change.  You don’t need to reinvent yourself for the new year.  You should accept who you are and do everything in your power to become the best version of yourself that you can be – starting on any day that you damn well please.

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Living the Dream

     I used to despise reading and then came “Harry Potter.”  All I can say is, God bless J.K. Rowling.  The woman is one of the most talented authors that I have read to date.  She was able to keep my interest (and foster an obsession with her writings) as a pre-teen, which mind you, is no easy feat.

At first, I was leery of reading “Harry Potter”.  I wasn’t much of a reader outside of what they forced me to read in school but I am so so glad that I gave in to peer pressure and read the book that all my friends were raving about.  I couldn’t put the damn thing down.  No, really.  My mother would get so annoyed because I refused to go to bed at a decent hour.  I would stay up all night reading “Harry “until my eyes started to burn and I eventually passed out on top of the book.  I think it most annoyed her when I refused to get up for school the next day because I was so exhausted (and when I refused to do things, it was like dealing with a two-year old.  As a matter of fact, my temper tantrums are still quite epic).

My obsession with “Harry Potter” is surprisingly not the reason that I set out to write this blog.  I just watched “Magic Beyond Words, The JK Rowling Story” tonight and I was in awe of the life that came before Harry.  Joanne Rowling did not have an easy life and although I had heard some stories, I very much appreciated seeing it played out for me.  It made it that much more real and brought tears to my eyes; first out of pity, then out of happiness, and then out of jealousy.  I often wish that I could find that kind of success doing what I love but I also fear that reality will prevent such a thing.

Rowling was chronically unemployed, struggling with jobs that left her feeling empty, lost her mother at a young age, married an abusive man and then supported her daughter as a single mother with the help of the state.  Not exactly the best of times for Ms. Rowling.  Luckily, her talent and perseverance brought her Harry and with Harry came piles of money and a great deal of fame.  So many success stories seem to have had difficult pasts, so does that mean that I’m doomed to a life of mediocrity because I’m not a poor, drug-addicted orphan or something equally as depressing?  I sure as hell hope not.  I don’t aspire to be rich or famous (although I most certainly wouldn’t turn it down), all I want is to feel validated by my work.  I want to make a contribution to society!  I don’t care if that makes me sound cliché, it is what I’m searching for in this life and I will not rest until I find it and I will find it.

For this reason I will continue to blog and continue to write until hopefully, one day, something comes of it.  That means, for those of you who like my writing, you better buy my book when I finally get one published!  And don’t think I won’t be stalking your asses telling you that you need to go buy it!  For now I will continue these little blogs as I attempt to write my book and a screenplay.  Just be patient and remember me.  Please?  🙂

“Why do I talk about the benefits of failure? Simply because failure meant a stripping away of the inessential. I stopped pretending to myself that I was anything other than what I was, and began to direct all my energy into finishing the only work that mattered to me. I was set free, because my greatest fear had been realized, and I was still alive, and I still had a daughter whom I adored, and I had an old typewriter and a big idea. And so Rock bottom became a solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life. It is impossible to live without failing at something, unless you’ve lived so cautiously, that you might as well not have lived at all.”- J.K Rowling